Evil Shouldn't Look This Good

Trying To Write.

2007-06-23T23:18:00.000-07:00

And I'm just about ready to abandon Blogger for good. Ever since the merging/buy-out with Google, this site has been royally fucked.

I can't reply to other people's blogs. I'll already be logged in with my super-awesome NEW AND IMPROVED google account, yet it still asks me to re-log in to verify that I'm using my account. And this happens AFTER I've already written my reply and hit the "publish" or "post" or what the fuck ever button. And then it doesn't accept the account I ALREADY FUCKING LOGGED ON WITH!!! So I lose everything I just typed. . what a fucking pain in the goddamn ass. Anyone else having this problem? Cuz it's pissing me the hell off.

Blogger was working just fine until this change-over happened. I may post the occasional "personal" blaaaagh, here. But it's become impossible for me to respond to anyone, so I'll be putting up my random thoughts (and spellings!) up on my stupid-ass MySpace blog. Fuck. Here's the link: http://www.myspace.com/nixeclips

I had intended to put up some other shit in this post, but I just got pissed at how fukced Blogger has become. Anyway, you don't have to have a MySpace to look at my shit, I think. Until they hook up with AOL and Time Warner and Wikipedia and George W. Bush, or whatever shit-bag waves stinky cash in front of their faces. Hell, it already sucks enough, so it can't get any worse, can it?

Nix says: Fuck.

Anybody Here?

2007-06-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

No? Good.

Good fucking kryst, what a shit-load of fuck. I ka-no I'm getting all crazy and shit, but fucking fuck.

I'm prolly going to hop on my broke-ass bike and head to the cemetery. How do you spell that? Fuck it. I'm going to the graveyard.

Dead. He's dead, why is that such an issue for me?

FUCK! Fucking fuck. Just fuck it.

Let's go bowling, dude.

Nix

This Is...HAHAHAHAHA! ahem My Ka-Nee

2007-05-19T20:00:00.000-07:00

I went to bed early, last night. 10 pm, to be exact. How very responsible of me!

I woke before the sun had fully risen and stretched all of my limbs, luxuriating in snuggling up with a fluffy blankie and flannel pillie (seeing as how my flannel sheets were somehow destroyed by feces, I must deal with a simple fluffy bankie. Don't ask, don't tell.).

Problem: A SEARING FUCKING PAIN SHOT THROUGH THE FRONT OF MY GODDAMN RIGHT KNEE! It felt like my knee was accusing me of trying to bend it in a position that was not common for knees. Fuck that fucking knee!

It was painful, but I eventually got back into my comfy-goodness. I awoke about an hour later and, forgetting my past interaction with my ligaments, attempted to stretch, once more.

BAD FUCKING IDEA!! It was so unbearable that I rolled around in a fetal position, streaming tears, just wishing someone would jump into my apartment and sever the offending limb with a goddamn chainsaw.

Obviously, this did not happen. But the pain did subside, eventually, and I just gave up and got on the internet to read crazy shit.

Anyone still reading this absolute bullshit? If you are, I hope you're amused. I use this blog as an attempt to ohn, own oan? my writing skills. Did you notice how I just questioned my own (ohn, oan) spelling? And not getting it right at least once? Even with spell-check? That's pretty damn fucking lame. But I find it funny, for some reason.

I wasn't lieing about my ka-nee. I was just babbling about it in a sarcastic or ironic manner.

I recently had a pseudo-convo with someone via IM that basically went like this (and I'm not quoting anyone, here. Just making it stupidly not what was said.)

Person that contacted me: "I hope you don't want to kill me for all the shitty things I keep doing to you!"

Me receiving this ridiculous message: "Well, you keep fucking doing it, so what the fuck does it matter if I want to kill you, or not?"

Person sending me stupid messages that do nothing to resolve or confront what happened: "You're such a dick. I'm sorry I even tried to be cordial!"

Me wondering why it took that person almost a week to even talk about this: "Well, maybe next time we could actually talk about this."

Person cramming in this convo before they have to leave in 3 minutes: "You're such a bastard for not wanting to be nice to me!"

Me just wanting to get back to my review: "Sorry. I'm a total dick. I'm an abusive asshole that cares not a fuck for you. I must have proven that over and over. Remember all those times I treated you like shit? Yeah. I have no right to not yell at you IN CAPS, BITCH! And that's why I didn't."

Nix says: Ooooo....Sarcasm is so fun.

Oh, Boy.

2007-05-18T00:56:00.000-07:00

This song is so right and wrong, and all at the same time! I've posted a fascinating blog on myspace about watching television. I know! Everyone will be copying and pasting and sending it to all their friends! http://blog.myspace.com/nixeclips There's the link! Spread it like a blog-virus! And where's my damn pizza? WTF? Bastards. I want my delicious pineapple and hammy cheese pie, you fuckers! Bah. On with lyrics to a song I wish I wasn't able to connect with. And, yes, it's on the live album.

Blue October

"Breakfast After Ten"

"White kitchen walls with a thousand windows
Turn on Winston in the den
And I'm still asleep but I can hear the piano
When you make breakfast after 10
And I smell the coffee on your fingers
I still smell the perfume in the bed
The crushed linen roses on everything
And you're still inside my head

You gotta make her know how it feels to miss you
Let her know you're swapping sides
You're not the one with all the problems
You're the one with all the pride

So just pick your head up boy, and
Walk away
Walk the coolest walk that you know
Cause in a month or two she'll call you
You gotta hang up the phone

I hope she knows I've got this memory
That won't ever seem to break or bend
A thick lock & sheet rock is on my windows in the kitchen
I don't think I'll ever take em' down again

And I've learned a lot from all these break ups and make ups
And fuck ups and fake ups
Things that I wish you could comprehend yeah, comprehend
But for now I'll lace up
these wingtip shoes, boys
And I'll go have breakfast with my good friends

You got to make her know how it feels to miss you
You got to let her know you're swapping sides
You're not the one with all the problems
You're the one with all the pride

You got to make her know how it feels to miss you
Let her know you're swapping spit
You're not the one with all the problems
She's the one that's full of shit

So just pick your head up, boys and
Walk away
Walk the coolest walk that you know
In a month or two she'll call you
You got to
Hang up the phone..."

I'd much rather be posting the lyrics to

"Balance Beam"

"I haven't been quite the same
So sure the story of my life would never change
In a bright eyed way
Rinsed out the soap in my eyes and wrote a song that I'm about to sing
It's about a girl
That I hardly even know
It's not another love song
Just a list of things that I should know
every man should know that...

[Chorus]
One: You've got to take it kind of slowly
Two: You've got to hurry up and make your move
Three: You've got to tell her that she's pretty
Four: You've got to be the perfect gentelman
When you shake the walls, you've got to make 'em bend
Yeah you're got to show her thats she's pretty
She's so pretty
You're the balance beam
And I keep falling all around this fairy tale.

We took a walk in the rain
My suggestion, she requested
The park nearby to cast the shade
Stay cool but I'm giddy like a school boy
You've got to handle with care this is not a toy
Gradually we touched
Though our clothes were wet
We sat and smiled
I never thought I'd smile so much
The first kiss always says the most

[Repeat Chorus]
Every man should know that
[Repeat Chorus]

OO this fairy tale OO this fairy tale
Some kind of fairy tale. Some kind of fairy tale.

Evey man should know that."

But that shit just doesn't seem to work. I must admit that females are still, at 32 years of age, a complete mystery to me. "Sure, let's go to a movie, you pay and then I'll tell you I can't see you, anymore." Hmmmm... Hope you enjoyed the film more than I did, cuz I thought it sucked. I do appreciate the offer to help break down boxes. That was awesome. But Sam Raimi owes me 2 hours and you owe me more than a fucking IM. But whatever. Here's another great song:

Trashcan Sinatras

A Coda

"ill-gotten feeling - a coda
my lover's leaving and i love her

i would've taken you in confidence on things
you wouldn't hear of it, you never let me in
under the circumstances
i confess i never tried my best

there's no plant tonight to water
and i don't care if i live or die either

wasted, lost emotions
nostradamus - now i know what's meant for me

i would have taken you in confidence on things
you wouldn't hear of it, but you never let me in
under the circumstances
i confess i never tried my best

now i know what's meant for me

i would have taken you in confidence on things
you wouldn't dream of it, you never let me in
under the circumstances
i confess i never tried my best... "

Well, that's a bit depressing. Sorry about that. Didn't mean to drag anyone down. I'm actually laughing at a lot of shit. For instance: LiveLines or whatever the fuck it is. This bitch states in the commercial that it's her favorite call-dating-service. So she has more than one? You desperate whore! (My apologies to actual desperate whores and not models with aspiring acting careers. You are free to call as many call-dating-services to meet your needs, you desperate whores.)

Well, that wraps up my bullshit life. Now is time for cake!

Nix says: I'm naming my band Desperate Whores. It's catchy.

The Sound Of Pulling Heaven Down

2007-05-14T22:22:00.000-07:00

Wow. I'm actually speechless. Wow. I suck.

[23:29] jessblueiz: Well, I just don't feel the same, anymore.
[23:30] *** You have been disconnected. Mon May 14 23:30:55 2007.
[23:31] jessblueiz: Amongst other things.

Oops. That was supposed to be an embedded link. Damn.

Nix

WARNING!! For Tetris Lovers Only!

2007-05-06T23:40:00.000-07:00

Well, you were fucking warned.

Here's some damn creative guys putting on a stage-based version of the classic. You have to watch the whole thing.

And here's the psychopaths from SomethingAwful.com being psychopaths in public. You should see their Resident Evil 4. The cops were called. More of their crazy shit at http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=RoccoB64 and www.mega64.com

And who knew that the Tetris theme could be sexy? Rowr! If only the damn guys stopped getting in the way of all the hot bitches and the camera would stand the fuck still for a while. And if the chicks would have gotten out of the pool with their wet, dripping, white shirts at the end. Anyway, video/music by some group called 2pm or something.

Nix says: Will have something worth writing about at some point in my life.

You Should Read This

2007-04-24T21:11:00.000-07:00

...Book. It's very informative and could help you achieve what you strive for.

It's called the Bible. And it's all about this super-hero that can walk on water and come back from the dead. And he gets angry at money and shit. He kicks ass.

Here's something:

Nix says: Poop.

Apple

2007-04-17T15:20:00.000-07:00

Just say that word a few times aloud. Apple. Apple. Apple. What a fucked up word.

Not much to say, just felt like giving my fingers a workout. Waiting on my PowerAde to get cold. Poor PowerAde. Everybody refers to it as GatorAde, when the PA doesn't taste all powdery when it gets somewhat warm.

This is some goodness that should please each of fans of our favorite slashers (except those dipshits that like Leprechaun or Chucky. Fuck those fuck-tards.)

And I don't particulary care for this vid/anime, but the song is so goddamn good and it's the only one I could find. (Besides one about some gay dudes, and that doesn't really work for me, thank you.)

Kinda hard to understand some of the lyrics, so here they are:

Waking Up Beside You"

I've been so alone for so long
Forgotten by the world
Forgotten to myself
Your effervescent eyes have awakened me
And brushed the dust away
But I knew you'd never stay

So I memorized the color of your eyes as I lost myself inside you
And I memorized the way our legs entwined as I drifted off beside you

I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you

At night I cling to you, I'm so afraid
Afraid the day will come
And I'll wake and find you gone
But you promised that you'd not abandon me
And kissed my fears away
But I woke up to that day

But I had memorized the way our eyes
would meet reflected in the bathroom mirror
And I memorized your naked silhouette as you slowly brushed your hair
I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you

I've been so alone for so long
I forgot how much it hurts
To wake up so alone

But I memorized how warm your body felt
as you lay half asleep beside me
And I memorized the way the sunlight
filled the room and played upon your body

I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you
I miss
God I miss
Waking up beside you

So, kiddies, I'm ready to go out and do something when I get back in town on Monday. Anybody up for it and have any ideas? We could always fuck your mom. That's always an option.

Nix says: Apple.

Hello, Dennis, Duane or Doug. I mean, Douche-Bag.

2007-04-15T23:42:00.000-07:00

Ahh, I love the weather, down here in Texas. Nice, warm and sunny. Well, except for when the tornadoes came through, the other day. Other than that, it's been great.

Sales are kicking all kinds of fucking ass. I estimate that out of 8 shows we've done about 25 grand, which would be about 3 grand per show. Not bad. And these are list leads. I can't wait for us to get the bridal show leads, later this week. Hopefully, we'll get better quality.

So, sober, again. This time for 5 days and I feel great. Although it was nice to get a little buzzed over the Easter holiday, getting totally trashed every day just seems kinda stupid. So, I've been thinking and whatever.

Feeling kinda content, but I miss my apartment. Really ready to get some cleaning done to make room for my couch. Gotta do some re-arranging, as well.

Dino DeLaurentis is, apparently, remaking Barbarella, which he already made in 1968. But how can anything compare to this:

Damn, Jane Fonda was fucking hot!

And here's My-Tea Kind performing Let Go live. Love this damn song.

Nix says: Growing and moving on. Feels good.

Yay, Ink!

2007-04-12T13:30:00.000-07:00

Damn, this fucking hurts.

So, Saturday, my sister and I went to finally get my tatt done. It took about 3 hours. I fell asleep for a few minutes. It looks killer. You can see it, here: http://www.myspace.com/nixeclips . It's just like the one my dad got in the Navy. And if you check my sisters' Space, you can see both of ours together. Love ya, dad! Miss you.

Well, it's nice here in Texas. Will be here a little over a week.

Nix

And, For The Kiddies

2007-04-05T18:39:00.000-07:00

Just, Blah.

2007-04-05T18:15:00.001-07:00

Here's some crap.

Sleep.

2007-04-02T01:56:00.000-07:00

Fuck, I want to sleep.

I can't.

Need more Jaegermeister. heheh.

I finally got an editing program. Next, I get a cord for my cam and I'm gonna be even more of a YouTube whore.

Ever heard of the Angry Video Game Nerd? Well, I'll be the Angry Movie Nerd. Should watch his shit, when you can.

Aside:

Who the fuck do you think you are? Who tried to help you when you had no job? Who tried to give you what you wanted on your B-Day? And now you're going to be as fucking evil as possible?

Why are you so fucking mean? Just viscious. What a bitch! Hopefully, I can have MY things back? Since I gave you yours?

One of the hardest things I've ever done. And you treat me like a shit, like it's my fault you can't fucking grow up, a little. You can talk about my shit all you want, but I've been across the country, on my own and supporting myself for fucking years. Yes, I'm now going to blow my own goddamn horn. I've moved to Cali, lived in Canada, I've done a ton of shit and lived as an adult. Where are you? Oh, using me for my shit I don't get to use. You're a fucking....Aggghhh! Hope dad sticks around long enough for you to wake up. Meanwhile, I've got bills to pay. You enjoy being a child. I'm gonna be responsible, dependable and lots of words that end in "ible" as best I can.

Nix says: Notice I didn't use the word "cunt". (Hizz, don't get pissed for that reference.)

Don't Let A Second...

2007-04-01T12:28:00.000-07:00

...bleed into days.

I know everybody is supposed to be retarded and put up bullshit, today. I get that. But I'm not feeling like being a retard.

Guster

"What You Wish For"

Woke up today to everything grey
And all that I saw just kept goin on and on
Sweep all the pieces under the bed
Close all the curtains and cover my head
And what you wish for won't come true
You aren't surprised love, are you?
If this serenade is not what you want
It's just how it is, it keeps goin on and on
Come out, come out where ever you are
Would you do it all over right from the start
And what you wish for won't come true
You aren't suprised love, are you?
So what you wish for won't come true
You aren't surprised love, are you?
Once had this dream, crashed down in Oz
Not black and white, but where the colors are
I never dreamed that I would let her go
And I will get what I deserve
Keep all the secrets under the bed
Open the curtains, forget what I said
And what you wished for could come true
You aren't surprised love, are you?
So what you wished for could come true
You aren't surprised love, are you?

Nix says: So, I guess the joke is on me.

Ok, so I'm not done.

Fucking right next door and can't let me join in, yet everyone else can. That fucking proves you don't give a shit about me. Just my empty apartment. Fuck fuckity fuck you.

Couch

I Did My Best! Yay!

2007-03-30T22:41:00.000-07:00

One out of three, baby. Oh yeah. I'm on fire!

Wish I could find this song online to share. It's one of the most beautiful and haunting songs ever written.

The Tear Garden

With Wings

The crippled soul divides
And the scars of years fly away
Like confetti on the desert wind
Phoenix rises
Proud young wings reflecting amber
Solitary
Untouchable
Excited
And ready to search for his rose
But the flight lasted so long
And those powerful wings grew weary
As he padded through blind alleys
Swooped open-eyed into blind curves
And wasted night
After lonely night
Trying to drink from a mirage
But no distraction could decimate
The totality of belief
And his number came up
Just when the weight of his despair
Had him pinned to a rock
When the feathers of his wings
Had been shed
And he stood naked
Before a disapassionate ocean of grey faces
His precious twin
His rose
Isolde dancing alone
Then multiplying
Inviting
So many many levels
And the crippled soul unites and prepares
For the long journey home

Nix says: Would it be suprising if I said "Fuck"?

Did Ya Kah-No?

2007-03-30T11:14:00.000-07:00

I'm needy.

No, I'm serious. I'm fucking needy.

I need closeness. Holding, touching, kissing. I need that.

I also need conversation. Discussions on various topics so we can share our thoughts.

I need to laugh, too. I'm impressed if anyone can make me laugh, so that's important.

And I need someone to laugh with me. That's important, as well.

And I need somebody that actually wants what I want. What do I want? Well, I want to move on from just fucking around and make something lasting.

So, yeah. I'm needy. I admit it, embrace it and accept it.

And now is time for cake!

Love And Rockets

Use Me

Use me
Come on and use me
Say do anything
So's that I'm not alone again
Now darkness and emptiness and happiness
Can all be mine
Just use me
So's that I'm not alone
We're not alone
You really got me
Come on and fuck with me
Just believe in me
Come on and use me
Say who you want to please
Is it my honey you need
So what's on my mind yeah
Again
Abuse me confuse me drink me do me
Come with me so's that I'm not alone
We're not alone
Not alone

Nix says: M.F.B. heheheh

Tomorrow's My First Show!

2007-03-29T20:19:00.000-07:00

Yay! I get to totally fuck up a show on my own! I wonder if I'll remember what the fuck I'm supposed to do. Will I through in a reference to Tommy, such as "towel paper-towel"? Stay tuned to find out the thrilling answers to these questions and more!

Guster

I Spy

We went down to the May parade,
mumbled words under my breath
There is something I've been meaning to do,
I am dying to tell you
I've been so damn tired

It went down at the May parade,
bitter words under my breath
There is something I've been dyin to do,
I was meaning to tell you
I've been so damned sad

Cause I spy something wrong

You don't know how far you've gone
Or recognize who you've become
How'd you grow to be so hard...
sick of playing my part

We went down at the May parade,
alcohol under my breath
There is something I've been meaning to do,
I am dying to tell you
I've been so damned sad

Cause I spy something wrong

You don't know how far you've gone
Or recognize who you've become
When'd you grow to be so hard...
sick of playing my part

I Hate.

2007-03-27T22:20:00.000-07:00

So many words that are unspoken.

But is there anything to say?

Fuck if I know.

God, I wanted to say so many things.

But I guess we're looking for different things.

So it's pointless babble that leaks from my mouth.

So many things I'm feeling.

And you'll never know what you've done.

"So I Thought"

All your twisted thoughts free flow
To everlasting memories
Show soul
Kiss the stars with me
And dread the wait for
Stupid calls returning us to life
We say to those who are in love
It can't be true 'cause we're too young
I know that's true because
so long I was
So in love with you
So I thought

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it

On my knees
Dim lighted room
Thoughts free flow try to consume
Myself in this
I'm not faithless
Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose
Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods
You learn to much to hold
Believe it not
And fight the tears
With pretty smiles and lies
About the times

A year goes by
And I can't talk about it

The times weren't right
And I couldn't talk about it

Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between
Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
So we can talk about it

Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between
omance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, healing

And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream

And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between

Nix says: And that doesn't even come close to what I'm feeling.

I'm Sighing, Again.

2007-03-27T01:55:00.000-07:00

I know this is fucking pointless. But I'm really not feeling well, in the head.

I'm fucked. That is all.

This is the only version of this song, that I could find. But I find it very sweet. Shit, I wish someone would think of me, that way. But the guy should be happy that he has all those pictures. I don't have shit. Only memories.

And put this up as my MySpace song.

A Pain That I'm Used To

I'm not sure
What I'm looking for anymore
I just know
That I'm harder to console
I don't see who I'm trying to be
Instead of me
But the key
Is a question of control

Can you say
What you're trying to play anyway
I just pay
While you're breaking all the rules
All the signs that I find
Have been underlined
Devils thrive on the drive
That is fuelled

All this running around
Well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe
All the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve
Something that rings true

There's a hole in your soul
Like an animal
With no conscience
Repentance unknown
Close your eyes
Pay the price for your paradise
Devils feed on the seeds
That are sown

Can't conceal what I feel
What I know is real
No mistaking the faking
I care
With a prayer in the air
I will leave it there
On a note full of hope
Not despair

All this running around
Well it's getting me down
Just give me a pain that I'm used to
I don't need to believe
All the dreams you conceive
You just need to achieve
Something that rings true

Nix says: Yes, I'm unhappy. And you do this to me. I realize that, no. Thanks. I try to say good-bye, but I try to pull you back. Figure out what you fucking want and let me be miserable. Because that's what you want, which is not me. Does that make sense? Who cares?

Here It Is.

2007-03-27T00:38:00.000-07:00

Breakfast.

What a stupid word.

Nix says: And all that it implies.

Midnight Snack

2007-03-23T22:51:00.000-07:00

Well, my goddamn phone line is not working, so this blog is delayed by 12 or so hours. I'm in Columbia, MO, but Thursday evening was spent at the Bean House, or something. It was kinda weird cuz I was with Jess, a girl I used to work with at Imo's, another girl that used to work with my ex-fiance at Subway, and someone I didn't know from a past life. And all four of them took turns slapping my face, some better than others, but all of them couldn't resist the chance to join in. It was fucking hot! Yes, I somewhat get off on pain. Good fucking times.

I think my "k" key is getting broken in, as it's not giving me trouble, anymore.

In other news, there really isn't any other news. But check here at some point in the future for a rather cool little thing I have in the works. (Hizz, don't tell.) It should be fun.

@Quill: Sorry I wasn't available. I was kinda avoiding everyone. So here's something just for you, buddy. You're never gonna believe it. Oh, and fuck you, my tattoo does not look like that.

Hope everyone finds what they need, someday. It could happen. You never know, do ya?

Nix says: And I was free.

So, For Dinner.

2007-03-22T09:27:00.000-07:00

I'm unreliable, messy, I never sleep, love horror, drink and ... I must be missing some things, here. Oh, and I never want to grow up.

I don't think "unreliable" was actually the word. But hey, you can't rely on me to remember everything!

Wow, if only there were a way to jack directly into my head. Anyone reading that would find that they just suffered a brain hemorrhage. Bzuuahht!

So, me and NutJob talked for a bit, last night. Anyone remember that it was her birthday, besides her son? The one that ran around yelling "It's mommy's birthday! Happy birthday, mommy!" as she tried to talk on the phone? Hmmm....

Oh, yeah, the conversation led to some good ideas for film. One, can be a short and is fucking hilarious. And one needs to be thought through, since there are so many different ways to take the story.

So, if you don't have anything to do and make no attempt to contact someone earlier, does it make a sound if a tree falls on you? I dunno. There might be a "crunch" or something.

My office has a cable connection and I utilize the hell out of it, while I'm there. Put up a pretty cool new song on my MySpace page.

Am I rambling? If you answered "No! You're not rambling!", then you're lying. I am fucking rambling.

I'm almost afraid to type my own thoughts, right now, as some might get sad, angry, happy. Oh, fuck it. Here goes....

I LIKE POTATOES!!!!

Actually, really fuck it.

Back and forth, back and forth! Upset at my feelings but causing them at the same goddamn time. What do you fucking want from me? Well, I know, and I'm willing to give you that, but just let me be confused, cuz you're really good at making me feel that way. You go and find what you want, but don't be suprised if I find what I'm looking for, before you do. Cuz I actually know what the hell it is. And you've told me that I won't get that from you, while you have no idea what you "really" want. That is what you are needing, right now, right? To figure it out?

Nix says: With butter, at that!

What I Had For Lunch

2007-03-21T09:52:00.000-07:00

Not really, just making a funny, that only I find funny.

I woke and sat up, wondering why I was awake. Thought of someone and wished she was here, and then I looked back at my bed, and there she was. And waking had so much meaning, because of that. So, I wrapped myself around her, kissing her lightly and just enjoying her being close to me and fell back into darkness. A beautiful way to realize what matters.

Vast

I Can't Say No (To You)

Closed eyes in the dark
Whispering when no one's around
The night sky looks like blue (?)
My touch does not affect you

I wait for the night to follow me
Like sugarplums, like sugardrops
I wait for the night to conquer me again
I can't say yes, I can't say no to you

We bring our stories with us
We light a candle for beauty's sake
Are you feeling the bliss?
I am dying
I am

I wait for the night to follow me
With sugarplums, with sugardrops
I wait for the night to conquer me again
I can't say yes, I can't say no to you

I wait for the night to conquer me again
I can't say yes, I can't say no to you

Nix says: And I faded into nothingness.

So I Can't Rhyme. Get Over It.

2007-03-19T16:09:00.001-07:00

Slowly, It Sinks In

You just don’t love me,

Like I love you.

It’s taken awhile,

But I’ve figured it out.

I’m the one,

That needs to move on.

And I will,

So you can be free

Of me.

Bonus Blog

2007-03-19T05:06:00.000-07:00

Wish that Simon would make this available for MySpace. But I've got the disc, so I'm hooked up. Blah. bloopity blah. Kill me.

This Is Where It Ends

What you got to be sad about cause all your love you can turn it upside down, turn it upside down, turn it upside down.
What you got to be down about cause all your life you can change it in a flash, avoid another crash and learn to steer at last.

This is where it ends.
This is where it ends.
Love's thrown down its ends.
So This is where it ends.
And This is where it ends and now you can live again.

What you reminiscing for
cause all last year you wanted a little more.
So you asked for more,
so you asked for more.
What you calling home about
because you know it's time just to let her twist and shout.
You'll see what it's all about, you'll see what it's all about.

This is where it ends.
This is where it ends.
Love's thrown down its ends.
This is where it ends.
This is life's big test.
And, Life's thrown down it's ends
This is where it ends.
This is where it ends.

It's better now you've hit ground
And you see you really just cared
Screaming out to the sound of life starting to rev
So don't run, don't run, just walk and raise your head

What you got to be sad about
well I tell you now just get your courage out.
You might see the light,
you might see the light.

This is where it ends.
This is where it ends.
Love's thrown down its ends.
This is where it ends.
And This is lifes big test.
Life's thrown down it's ends
This is where it ends.
This is where it ends.

Lyrics c Simon Pollitt 2006

I'm Playing The Blues, Right Fucking Now.

2007-03-18T23:54:00.000-07:00

So fuck off!

I used to have an extensive collection of blues CD's but they were stolen when I lived in Cali. I just burned the last one by R.L.Burnside and it's pretty damn cool.

Now, when I'm home, I only turn my stereo up during "normal" hours. Like noon to 7. Other than that, I either use my computer or turn it to an "acceptable" level.

I just recieved my first complaint in the almost 2 years I've lived here. Heard someone slam their apartment door and then a very annoying rapid knocking at my door. Now, I have a little hole I can look through, and it's actually not that little, but it does have a button beneath it, that you can push, and it will make a dinging noise. This bitch gave the annoying rapid knock and hid to the side, so I couldn't see who the fuck was out there. Good thinking. You could be wearing a ski-mask and holding a switch-blade. I open the door, anyway, cuz I was in a pretty good mood. Just had a wonderful night with someone and was feeling mellow. This bitch then comes around the corner (again, good thing she wasn't someone trying to kill me) and looks like she's going to rip her hair out. Can I turn "that" down, because it comes straight through the wall and is driving her "crazy". Seriously, she actually looked like she was going crazy from hearing a 75 year old black man singing at 5 pm. I was smiling and nodding and saying "I'm sorry", but when she was done with her rant, she huffily turned and stomped back to her apartment.

WTF? I've been here almost 2 years and noone NOONE has ever had a problem with my movies or music. Oh, and she stated that she hears it "every day". Yeah, right. I'm not fucking here, every day, bitch.\

What I'd like to do: Load up all 5 slots in my player, crank it up and let it play while I'm in Texas. I'd actually go out and buy the most annoying music, ever. I'd buy Hanson with MmmBop. I'd buy Fergie's album. The most annoying shit and let her fume over it for a couple days, until she finally calls the complex and they come into my apartment and turn it off. Damn! That would be fucking great!

Now, I've only seen one other person get all upset at the blues. When I worked at the video store (thanks for all the porn!) there was an old guy who was a PHD in music. He loved our back-room with all the porn and that's all he ever rented. And I was playing a collection of various great blues artists. This fucker comes up, porn in hand, mind you, and says "What is this?" Me: "Well, this is blues." Him:"It's driving me crazy. This is shit!" Excuse me? I got nothing against porn, I have a huge bag full of shit. But to be physically and mentally bothered by one of the greatest music genres....that's just retarded. No wonder you have to get your nuts off to annoying 20 year olds. You're a fucking moron! Fuck off!

Here's some R.L.Burnside

Anyway, good album. Not feeling like writing a review for the Tomb. And your mother was a couch. Do you know what I did to her?

Nix says: MILF Hunter. Believe it. LOL. Creepy kid.

For The Hizzy

2007-03-17T10:39:00.000-07:00

It's on the live album titled "Farewell", their last live performance. Done on Halloween, btw. Here's the version you heard me play over and over.

Nix says: Love me the Elf-Man!

Yeah, That's True.

2007-03-16T17:55:00.000-07:00

I'm fucked.

Need something to do. Going fucking crazy.

Nix says: What goes around comes all the way back around. Yeah, right. Never seen that happen.

I'm Such An Idiot.

2007-03-16T02:13:00.000-07:00

Yeah, Mr. Genius IQ is a total fucking moron when it comes to protecting himself.

God, I let myself be swayed by my emotions, so easily.

I still don't know what the fuck is going on! I made a suggestion, which I thought was accepted, and then everything just went crazy. Nice after-taste in my mouth, though.

Fuck. Whatever.

Nix says: www.tombofanubis.com

How Long Will I Wait For You?

2007-03-15T00:28:00.000-07:00

Well, that's just a quote from a song. It really has no place in my life.

Damn, I'm really fucking angry. Sure, I'm depressed, but anger is really coming to the forefront, here.

I know I've made the right decision, in this situation. But why did I have to make that decision, to begin with? Oh, that's right. Somebody couldn't make up their minds and just kept fucking with me. Not only that, but then treating me like shit, when they ran away.

I didn't deserve any of that. I deserve so much better. And if I ever decide to find someone worthy of my love, I hope I choose wisely.

And perhaps that person will be able to actually talk about things. Guys are always singled out as being unable to discuss serious issues, but this just proves that girls can be just as stupid.

Nix says: Now is time for cake!

Don't Forget!

2007-03-14T21:49:00.000-07:00

Check www.tombofanubis.com for my new review of Kottentail.

I'm embarrassed to admit this, but I really like this song. Until he starts rapping or whatever at the end.

Nix says: Someday, someone won't fuck me over.

No YouTube, For Once

2007-03-13T10:43:00.000-07:00

Well, everything is done and over. Me and the stupid teddy-bear are gonna get to know eachother. Simon Pollitt sent me his disc and it's great.

Making big changes in my life.

Moving on.

Still upset, angry and depressed, but this is for the best.

Goodbye to all that seemed so right but turned out to be oh so wrong.

Nix says: Fucking bullshit.

Perfect Poopiness

2007-03-06T22:11:00.000-08:00

I just don't know what to do. I'm in what you would call a quandary. I know what I SHOULD do. I also know what I want to do. But I could very well end up doing what shouldn't do and I don't want to. There's what should happen and what may happen. Fuck me! I know this could be confusing to decipher. Good. Welcome to my fucking head.

The following should take you on a little guide through my thinking.

Oingo Boingo. Great band, great song. We Close Our Eyes. Live.

This isn't the greatest vid, but it kinda gets the point across. Another great song. White Flag by Dido.

Gotta throw in some wolf love with this Breaking Benjamin.

And, just to make this more like my thinking, here's a fan vid for Circle Of Dust, which used to be one of my favorite underground bands. Yurasuka. (pronunciation found in vid)

Nix says: Head reeling. So confused. Dead inside.

Blogger, Oh Sweet Blogger

2007-03-02T23:21:00.000-08:00

It's quite interesting to go back and read stuff from back to, well, Sept. of 2004 on up to the present. See all the different shit I was thinking, feeling, saying. What I went through. Seeing how I came out the other side of all those different things with a new attitude and optimism.

So, I'm pretty sure I'll come out of my latest shit-fest with the same. I've already made a few steps towards that (well I sent what I thought was a very adult message that expressed good things and wishes) and it's getting somewhat not as painful. I'm not as angry I was. But the way I and the situation was handled/treated pretty much pissed me the fuck off. (I think my "K" key is wearing out from the constant typing of the word "fuck". I have to fucking really press down on it, to make it work.) So, that one post (if you read it you know which one) that I took down was just the way I was feeling at that time, but the next day, I realized that it was just my anger and depression overriding my normally profane, but still not vindictive, self. I don't try to hurt anyone, but that was crossing the line. My very bad. I'm sorry.

On the other hand, don't treat someone like shit and ignore them and it probably wouldn't happen.

So, here's some more beautiful music. This one is an acoustic version of a really good song by 30 Seconds To Mars. Took me awhile to get into this band, but they have some good stuff. Here's Was It A Dream.

And I have a confession to make. That song actually made me put up a pic on my stupid MySpace, so I can never forget the good things when the bad are trying to make me hate. Because, as much as I could, I don't want to. I want to remeber why I was happy, in the first place. So, if you just passed over that live performance, you missed something powerful. Scroll back up and give it a shot.

And here's a trippy little vid to one of my favorite Cure songs: Never Enough. Smoke up, bitches!

And one really pointless vid for TSTM for Savior. But I like the song so much and the lyrics are good enough to just be printed on a screen.

Nix says: So I show my head through others music, nowadays. Fuck off. I don't even know for sure, anymore, what the fuck is going on.

Just Effing Great, Thanks!

2007-03-02T02:20:00.000-08:00

In case you were wondering how I was doing.

Got a suprising phone call as I was leaving, today. Wonder what that was all about. The world may never know.

Made it to Texas and we're shacked up in a Motel 6, before we find our real hotel. Should be fun. The GPS can't locate the address I type in and wants to take us somewhere else. Hooray for technology.

If you ever go and do karaoke with me, you know there's one song I love to sing all the time. I Don't Have Anything by VAST. Well, I found a nice live performance to share. Enjoy. And fuck love in the ass until it is rectally bleeding. Back to the single life where noone could hurt me except myself.

"Now you know my life will you see me through ghost eyes?
Will you cut the ties?
If you do I'll be fine again and I'll put up my shield and I'll never die
Except inside."

Simon Pollitt "Fragile"

Thank You, Vast.

2007-02-24T23:24:00.000-08:00

I've been wanting to run up mountains, scream, punch things and just tear shit up. This video, featuring the music of Vast and scenes from Equilibrium, almost gives me that satisfaction. (And if you've never heard Bill Cosby sing "Satisfaction" you're missing out.)

THEN I found a vid for a great song that makes me think the other way. We should talk this through and make this work. The vid doesn't really say, that. They went another way, but the song is fucking great. I hate love. It's totally fucked. I'm beginning to think it's not worth it. But here's a good song for you. Stereo MC's:

Nix says: I still wanna kill people, though.

Haven't I Said This, Before?

2007-02-24T21:16:00.000-08:00

WORST FUCKING TRIP EVER!!!!

Agh! Fuck! Shit! Everything sucks! FUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

Quote: "Only you can make yourself happy." Um, yeah. I was pretty damn happy when I was alone. Then somebody made me even more happy. And now I'm fucking not happy being alone. Fuck off.

Here's a good song and a good vid to go along with it. It uses fractals. "In colloquial usage, a fractal is "a rough or fragmented geometric shape that can be subdivided in parts, each of which is (at least approximately) a reduced/size copy of the whole"[1]. The term was coined by Benoît Mandelbrot in 1975 and was derived from the Latin fractus meaning "broken" or "fractured"." Confused? Yeah, me too. But I used to take my video camera, plug it into the TV and then film the TV of the camera filming the TV and created fractals. I discovered that at the age of 11. This video uses an actual computer program. Enjoy, you druggies!

Here's a guy that just happened to request "friend" status on the day I was broken-up with over MySpace messaging. Heh. Nice. The song I heard when I visited his Space before adding him really spoke to me. I can't find it on YouTube, but visit his Space, he's Simon Pollitt at the bottom of my top 20 and well worth it. Support independant art! The song, This Great Day is actually playing at my MySpace. He's sending me a disc of his music, at no charge, btw, and I'd be glad to share it with those who are looking for mellow music and great vocals and lyrics. Here's a live vid. The aud/vid is a bit off (Yay, YouTube!) Visit him at http://www.simonpollitt.co.uk/ , as well. Enjoy! He's great and a really nice guy!

And for something more substantial: I found this clip of some guy talking about Rosie O'Donnel's racial comment. Good stuff.

Nix says: Getting home early. Hooray. I have so much to look forward to.

Big Fuckin' sigh

2007-02-23T01:01:00.000-08:00

I put up almost this exact vid at somebody's MySpace with a different song. Who knows if it will see the light of day.

That was for that person, this one is for me.

It's not just a vid about love, it's about the emptiness when someone is gone. Hmm. Just really stressed, right now. So many things. My sis goes in for spinal surgery "today" (friday) and I can't be there. That's one thing. Fuck. Anyway. Here we go.

Am I dying? Is what was so wonderful gone? What's happening, right now?

So many things. Work, family, relationship. Fuck. If my dreams are any indication, it's all fucked to fucking hell. Wish I was a pill user. Would be a quiet and peaceful way to just say good-bye.

If you're interested in what the other song was (which was a better vid, btw), here's a link: www.youtube.com/watch?v=RyCWdVNsSx8 (I actually put it up on MySpace.)

Nix says: Can this trip get any worse?

Pointless Video Of The Year

2007-02-21T20:32:00.000-08:00

Well, I have nothing to report that is of interest, so I'm putting up an extremely pointless video. I had one that was more interesting, but YouTube is down for fucking maintenance.

It's 4 minutes and 56 seconds of Asia Argento jumping about and then fucking around with the DJ equipment and just looking sexy as hell. Like I said: Pointless. But I like it.

Nix says: Asia, you'll never know me, but you're my childhood sweetheart.

Goody-Good Thingies

2007-02-19T13:43:00.000-08:00

Well, my new review/opinion/whatever at www.tombofanubis.com came out really well.

Just wanted to share with you a short film from someone I met through DeRex. Remember that guy? He just disappeared. But the Great Swifty is still around and here's an older short he made. It's kinda funny, yet still emotional, at the same time. Great editing, here.

Nix says: Wish I had something that good to show off.

Love This Damn Song

2007-02-16T19:57:00.000-08:00

Fleetwood Mac

World Turning

The audio is a bit off from the vid, I think, but still a great tune.

And it's not really known for it's in-depth and many lyrics, more for it's guitar and drum work, but here they are, as well:

Everybodys trying to say Im wrong
I just wanna be back where I belong

World turning
I gotta get my feet back on the ground
World turning
Everybodys got me down

Maybe Im wrong but whos to say whats right
I need somebody to help me thru the night

Nix says: It's a driving to or from Texas song, for sure, and it really speaks to me.

Why?

2007-02-14T23:46:00.000-08:00

SNOW PATROL

"You Could Be Happy"

You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go

And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head

Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur

Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far

Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do

More than anything I want to see you grow
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

Nix says: I'm sorry. I'm trying.

Ouch.

2007-02-13T23:24:00.000-08:00

I couldn't find a vid to go along with this, so find the song on your own. Call Heather, she prolly has it.

Here are the lyrics:

"Savior"

Until you crash
Until you burn
Until you lie
Until you learn
Until you see
Until you believe
Until you fight
Until you fall
Until the end of everything at all
Until you die
Until you're alive

Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care
Don't save me, don't save me, cuz
I don't care

Until you give
Until you've used
Until you've lost
Until you lose
Until you see, how could you believe?
Until you've lived a thousand times
Until you've seen the other side
This is my chance, this is my chance

Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care
Don't save me, don't save me, cuz
I don't care

Until the truth becomes a lie
Until you change, until you deny
Until you believe

This is my chance, this is my chance
I'll take it now because I can
This is my chance, I want it now

Don't save me, don't save me, cuz I don't care
Don't save me, don't save me, cuz
I don't care

Save me, save me, save me
Save me, save me, save me
I don't care

You know what! Fuck that! I think this is more to the point.

PANIC! AT THE DISCO LYRICS

"Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For Snacks"

Watch your mouth
Oh, oh, oh
Because your speech is slurred enough
That you just might swallow your tongue
I'm sure you'd want, want to give up the ghost
With just a little more poise than that

Or was it God who chokes
In these situations, running late?
No, no, he called in
Or was it God who chokes
In these situations, running late?
No, no, he called in

The hospice is
A relaxing weekend getaway
Where you're a cut above all the rest
Sick and sad patients
On first name basis with all the top physicians

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

That's when you stu-stu-stutter something profound
To the support on the line
And with the way you've been talking
Every word gets you a step closer to hell

That's when you stu-stu-stutter something profound
To the support on the line
And with the way you've been talking
Every word gets you a step closer to hell

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

I am
Alone in this bed, house, and head
And she never fixes this
But at least she...

I am
Alone, in this bedroom
She never fixes this
But at least she...

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

The hospice is
A relaxing weekend getaway
Where you're a cut above all the rest
Sick and sad patients
On first name basis with all the top physicians

Nix says: I'm rational, can you be?

Words

2007-02-13T09:27:00.000-08:00

Had a good conversation last night. And here is what I learned.

To expect someone to change their habits overnight is retarded.

To have someone take steps to change and not acknowledge that is fucking retarded.

I like the word retarded.

Who Am I?

2007-02-12T20:50:00.000-08:00

I am not me.

I should have majored in philosophy. They still would have made me take math classes, though.

Well, today was the first day of my 3 days off and it went off swimmingly!

I...well, I didn't do a damn thing. Hooray! It's my fucking day off!

Oh, I'm sorry. Was I supposed to pretend that I had something to do? My bad.

Nix says: Damn, I'm hungry.

Full Disclosure.

2007-02-11T00:02:00.000-08:00

Well, shit. That DM vid I put up that I thought was so fucking cool because they only used the story-boards...It was the video with out the goddamn CGI. I just found the completed vid, so I'm gonna have to put it up. It's a good song, so it's not that bad to re-post, but still... here, take it.

I still like it without all the douche-bag CGI, but it's not a bad vid.

Anyway (there's that fucking word, again.), discovered a new band that's pretty cool called Luce. Here's how it happened. John, Tony and Kathy all hated Snow Patrol. They then proceeded to hate Depeche Mode. Then they hated God Lives Underwater. Look, we're not playing music for people in their 50's. These are younguns and don't want fucking disco. John's brilliant plan was to play some hard-core shit which would most likely have curse words and alienate more mellow people. Jesus fucking christ. Finally, we had Matchbox 20 and then Kathy slid in Luce, which I really liked. So, here's a couple vids and accompanying lyrics. (The only ones I could find, easily.) I think they kinda make me think of how happy I am with Jess. My suggestion is to listen as the music plays and read the lyrics and if you feel like it, watch the vids, later. Maybe it's my hearing or the "ear buds", but I found it hard to make out the words.

Lyrics for "Good Day" by Luce

Good Day
by Luce
album:
Well I wake up to a sky so blue
With my girlfriend in the other room
Got the coffee on, the pancakes done
The cat's sleeping outside in the sun

The tv sings its morning blues
And it’s all the same with all the news
But she walks up, smiles, kisses me
And says "your coffee’s done".

Then starts singing.
Yeah yeah yeah
She is singing.

"it’s a pretty good day.
I’m lookin’ forward to tomorrow
to have a pretty good day".
Yeah yeah yeah

Well it’s a pretty good day
I’m looking forward to tomorrow
We’ll have a pretty good day
Yeah we’ll have a good day.

So I lace my boots up and step outside
Catch a cab because my car died
And I go to work with my friend Dan
Painting houses the best we can

On my way back home I try and mix it up
Walk halfway then take a bus
And as it pulls up and the doors open
I hear the bus driver say step up please

Step up. And I’m singing
Yeah yeah yeah
And I’m singing yeah yeah yeah yeah
Some guy looks over and says ‘how ya doin’?’

I say Well it’s a pretty good day
I’m looking forward to tomorrow
I’ll have a pretty good day
Yeah yeah yeah

Well it’s a pretty good day
I’m looking forward to tomorrow
I’ll have a pretty good day
Yeah I’ll have a good day

And through the window
There’s a whole world
And I’m watching all the people
All the faces and the places I have yet to go

And the sunshine now it’s fading
And my girlfriend she is waiting
And I bet that she’s outside
Sleeping in the shade

Cause it’s a pretty good day
I’m looking forward to tomorrow
I’ll have a pretty good day
Yeah yeah yeah

Well it’s a pretty good day
I’m looking forward to tomorrow
I’ll have a pretty good day
Yeah, I’ll have a good day

It’s a good day
Yeah yeah
It’s a good day

Nix says: Every day is a good day, when you're with me.

And here's a cute little one. It actually makes me want to get a fucking dog, and anyone that knows me, knows I'm a cat guy. This song is so damn beautiful, though. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, Jess. Not to scare you, again, but I feel very strongly that there is a reason we're together, again. And I could listen to this over and over and still be a teary bitch. I love you.

Lyrics for "Buy A Dog" by Luce

had a dream it was a good dream you were there and so was I, we were so happy I did not want to open up my eyes and we were driving down a road it was a long one there were signs all over saying the signs said, "welcome to your life" I looked over and you were smiling you had a great big smile going then you turned to me, you turned and you said "all your life I got ur back"

so if you want to try we'll make it you and I we'll never be alone we'll buy a dog and bring him home he'll jump up on the bed we'll be the best of friends I think that we should try just picture you and I...

I had another dream I know you think how convienent but I swear it's the truth we were there, I was me and you were you, we had a good long life on this planet when we died we went to heaven and saw that god was really Elvis! anyway, our souls were in the right place our souls were in the right place..

so if you want to try well make it you and I we'll never be alone we'll buy a dog and bring him home he'll jump up on the bed we'll be the best of friends I think that we should try just picture you and I...

and we'll take him on walks with us everyday (underneath the summer sun) he can ride in the back of our car when we go away with his head outside of the window frame and his tongue out,

(Chorus)

it's a miracle that we're even here and alive
let's buy a dog and bring him home.

Nix says: I love you so much, baby.

A Nix Specialty.Nice!

2007-02-10T00:29:00.000-08:00

Well, obviously, a lot has happened, lately.

I was left and then not left. Hmm. That doesn't really sound like a lot, but it was pretty devestating to me.

I appreciate everyone taking the time to deal with my emotional breakdown and doing their best to help me through that. Hopefully, all can be worked out with words and understanding. And most importantly, the knowledge that we both love eachother. I feel strongly that this can work and it is what I want in my life.

Anyway, (I say that a fucking lot, don't I?) I got a double shot of the "Nix Specialty". Both Depeche Mode tunes from their latest album, Playing The Angel, which is a nice return to form for them. Here's one for the ladies. I think it's a pretty cool idea to not totally do the CGI and just have the story-boards. Nice.

And here's another with a political theme, for my buddy, Quill. Dude, you're gonna love this fucker. Let me know if it actually plays all the way, I'm having issues with my blogger.

Ok, and here's something retarded, 'cuz I'm in a political mood, after that genius.

That's all, for now. Don't expect a new review at www.tombofanubis.com from me, but check out what the other guys have for you.

Nix says: Thanks, again, for being there.

Bad Timing. Ha!

2007-02-08T12:09:00.000-08:00

Wow, my apartment is pretty fucking empty. Yeah, it's still crammed to the gills with movies and clothes and shit, but damn...

I guess I've learned my lesson. Actually, I don't know what lesson that would be. All I know is that I lost myself in someone else and assumed that we were mutually happy. Boy, was I fucking wrong.

Next time, if there is one, I'm totally playing the "dick" card and not giving a shit. I'm just gonna do what I want and fuck what my companion wants or needs. Seems that chicks like assholes. I can act like an asshole. I'm a very good actor.

Anyway, Bill Hicks is fucking hilarious. I just picked up a DVD of his. Forgot how cool he was. Another great entertainer that died on us.

Nix says: Wow. So empty.

Just Glad To Be Here

2007-02-07T12:40:00.000-08:00

Am I really that bad of a person? So horrible that within 2 days they would want to leave me? Am I that "high maintenance"?

Shit. I know I'm emotional and stuff, but am I really that bad?

Here are the reasons I suck:

1) I want a "committed" relationship. (Sorry, it's just that when I love somebody I want them all to myself. My bad.

2) I travel for a living. (Again, my bad. Sorry I need to make money to pay my rent and electric and gas. Sorry about that.)

And then we get into what might possibly be the REAL reason:

I drink. (Yep. I do it. A lot. How ya doin'? Suprised?)

Perhaps (love that word), this is what should have been discussed, instead of work and not wanting to commit.

However, I think commitment is pretty goddamn important. I talk shit, but I'm not gonna fuck some random bitch.

Nix says: Fucking stupid shit. But you want kids. What the fuck-ever.

How Very Fitting

2007-02-07T02:35:00.000-08:00

I had a post up here but took it down, because it was no longer relevant. Amazing what can happen in the span of 3 hours. And then Blogger is forcing me to use their new fucking shit. Fuck those fucking assholes up their fucking asses.

Anway, since we're on a new thingie and things have changed, thought I'd put up a few rules:

RULES FOR BEING IN MY LIFE:
1) If you have something worth saying, fucking say it.
2) I don't play the "20 Questions" game.
3) I am often not in the 'Lou. Deal with it.
4) I'm emotional. Again, deal with it or find some douche-bag that doesn't give a fuck about you.
5) I like to drink. And if you do, as well, you have nothing to bitch about.
6) Appreciate what I have to offer you. Sure, it may not be money and it may not be a lot of time, but don't fuck me over when I've got it to share.
7) I'm gonna fuck your mom.

Ok, that last part is bullshit, but I think it sounds funny.

God Lives Underwater

23

I'm breathing the air
the air i always breathe
i don't have a lot
but i want someone to share it with me
i really only want a few things
they've all been taken away
what does the next life bring
i just want to feel o.k.
i'm searching forever
for someone or something
i want to be high
and i want someone to love me
i spent 23 years now
trying to get by
other people make it day to day
i still wonder why
i only really had a few things
they've all turned to tears
one tried to kill me
the other kept me here
i'm still here

Oh, and I've been doing some re-modeling (sp?). Got a nice hole in my wall. And no tools needed! Amazing!

Nix says: I don't know what to do with myself

Hello Children Of The '80s!

2007-01-30T03:40:00.000-08:00

This is a quick one.

I loved He-Man, when I was a child. Now, I realize how retarded it was. So, this is a combination of the two (2) most retarded things ever created.

@Quill: I found something that incorporated the fucking Douche-Cats, but I wouldn't give you the satisfaction, you fucker.

Nix says: I find it amusing. But what the hell is up with the fucking guy stirring the pot? I don't remember that shit.

We Should Do This Everyday!

2007-01-26T15:22:00.001-08:00

That's my new catch-phrase. I say it everytime we have to do something that sucks. Like today. We had to drive to Dallas and drop of shit for a bridal show. I love Texas traffic.

Sales still suck, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Anyway, I've got a new update sent to www.tombofanubis.com and it should be up Sunday. It's basically just my quick recap of all the movies I saw last year. Fuck, I had to go through over 400 and I STILL missed some.

This video down there is fucking hilarious. Some guys totally rip on David Blaine. Enjoy.

Nix says: Seriously, every day, we should do this.

Wizard Of Speed And Time

2007-01-24T22:24:00.000-08:00

I first saw this short in film school. It was quite amazing and inspiring, as well. This is a variation on stop-motion, where you have an actual person instead of a model. This one came out in '79, but in, I believe, '83 he took this and made a feature film about a little guy trying to make it in Hollywood and re-made the short with more money and effects, but...DAMN! This fucker is talented and it's too bad he never got more work in Hollywood. (btw, youtube is all fucked, right now, so try it again tomorrow, if it doesn't work)

Here's the clip of the re-done one. I think the stand-out scene is him running through the sprinkler. But both are amazing.

In other news, I'm in Texas. Struck out on my first show. Blah.

Oh! @Hizz: While I was in Springfield, there was some dudes all done up like KISS and they looked killer.

@Quill: Actually, this band called Black Dahlia sounds like something you might like. Look 'em up.

Nix says: I got nothing. Blah.

I'm Gonna Be Positive

2007-01-20T01:46:00.001-08:00

Yes, being away from Jess and being away from the 'Lou had stressed me out. I'm not used to being home for months. And I'm especially not used to being away from someone that loves me. When I started this job, I was hoping that I could revive a relationship that I thought could be fixed and made better, however, there was no relationship to be had. I was a fuck-toy that made someone happy, and that was all.

I'm bitter and resentful about that, but I realize this:

WITHOUT THAT SHIT, I WOULDN'T BE WHERE I AM AND WITH SOMEONE I LOVE.

I'm glad I stayed true to myself and my stupid rules. I'm glad I came back to the U.S. for her and got fucking screwed over. (not literally, dammit)

If none of this had happened, I never would have found this job, friends and my mate.

I don't know how many times I can say it and I don't care if I say it too many times. Jess is the perfect companion and she makes me so happy I could bleed happiness, if that was possible.

I've had offers of just non-commital sex and said "No". Sure, I'd like that, but I want to build something with someone I love and know I love.

I'm committed to someone I think is worth my love and I'm going to do everything I can to make her happy.

@Jess: Baby, you still drive me crazy. Nothing's going to change me.

Enough about me. What about when you get old and need help?? What do you do?

Nix says: Shit! My hip gives out and I'm not that fucking old!

Poop

2007-01-16T12:56:00.000-08:00

Ok, I'm getting used to being back on the road. I feel much better, today. And I'm not being HAL from that one movie that that one guy made. You know, the one with the guy and the words and monkeys and shit?

Anyway, I know I've been a YouTube whore, lately. I'm sorry. But when I'm on the road, I get to use my wireless. When I'm home, I'm stuck with dial-up, because I'm never there and I'm not paying for service I won't use. Plus, if I end up in a shitty hotel (which doesn't happen TOO often) I have dial-up to fall back on.

Another anyway, I've been looking at Evil Dead vids and found a few that were cool. I think there was one to Static-X that was well made and one to Flagpole Sitta, which was funny. But the one that really impressed me the most is from a group called Monkey Farm Frankenstein. It's fucking amazing. And I love their name. They're obviously horror fans, as it makes reference to Day of the Dead, my favorite Romero flick. You SHOULD be able to check out their music on the myspace page. I was having trouble, but it's fucking awesome and I'm buying their shit.

Here's the scoop, straight from the fuckers: "If you like this, check out Monkey Farm Frankenstein's debut album on Some Bizzare Records, available at www.hmv.co.uk - search for MFF.

The MFF vs The Evil Dead is composed of over 200 audio and video samples taken from the following films: The Evil Dead, Evil Dead 2, and Army of Darkness. NO OTHER ELEMENTS WERE USED"

That's important to remember. Now, watch and be impressed. Stick with it, at least for the "bastards" part, it's fucking awesome.

And, I've been watching this. Bruce is now shilling for..well, just watch and listen and try to figure out what the fuck he's talking about before it's over. It's not the product, you fools.

Nix says: Miss you, baby.

Can't Stop It

2007-01-15T23:14:00.000-08:00

Ok, I've been real emotional and I know it's stupid, but I miss being home, with my fucking beautiful and awesome girl. I know. I know.

I've broken down a few times and cried so hard that it hurt. Even Jeff had to ask me what was going on. It's stupid. I've been trying to let her get ready for this shit and I can't even deal with it. I suck.

This vid is just for her (wanna play this and make love, baby? hehehehe):

Nix says: I love you, baby.

Everything Old Is New, Again

2007-01-15T14:41:00.000-08:00

I'm upset that I can't find the full scene, but this is going to have to do.

Just those lines: "Dreams can come true, again." and "I might fall in love with you, again" mean so much to me. God, I'm gonna get so emotional, right now. I can't see doing anything other than selling pots and I can't see me being happy whithout Jess. I'm gonna shut my ass up, now, because it's getting intense.

So, here's what I could get.

Nix says: I love you, baby. I miss you. I'm so glad you stalked me.

Worst Trip, Ever

2007-01-13T21:41:00.000-08:00

And I haven't even started shows. Packing was the most horrible thing I've ever had to do. I didn't want to leave my baby. Shit. I fucking cried, at one point. I suck.

Anyway, I found these videos from oHgr of Skinny Puppy fame. This first one is pretty goddamn funny, as it makes fun of Trent and Eminem. Amazing stop-motion and a great song.

And I put this one up for Quill. A great song, but the vid is very much for the Quill. Again, amazing animation and a killer song, but it's so much more than eye-candy, just like the other one.

Nix says: Fuck Illinois. They have a town called Illiopolis. WTF is that?

Shit!

2007-01-10T09:54:00.000-08:00

It's a new year and I haven't commented on the old fucking year. Goddammity-dammit!

Hmmm...Let's see... Well, I found out that salespeople aren't all assholes, because I am one, now. I won the Oscar(c) for rookie. Oh, that reminds me. Here are my final numbers: 579,336.40
Somebody else: 578,389.60 (That explains all of the staring and looking unhappy.)
And somebody else: 543,686.50 (That explains nothing, but is fucking sweet.)

I've made new friends with old friends (it makes sense in my head, fuckers!) and had major changes in my life. I guess the song "Everything Old Is New Again" makes sense.

I'd (not) like to address one major event of the past year. I spent some time with a wonderful girl and her beautiful kids and I was very happy. If only things had been different. If life had not turned out the way it did. I could have stayed happy. But I guess that isn't what was supposed to be my life. I made a choice and I believe it was the right one for everyone involved. I care and worry about her and how she's doing and hope everything really does work out for her.

In the meantime, I'm happy as shit. I'm shitting on the bed, RIGHT NOW, I'm so happy. That's pretty fucking happy, idnt it? Seriously, Jessica is such a funny, beautiful and witty bitch. *sigh* I wish she were here and not at work.

What about movies, you don't ask? Well...No particular order.
The Descent. Fucking awesome.
2001 Maniacs. Bizarre fun.
Hard Candy. Intense.
Lucky # Slevin. Funny!
Evil Aliens. Wait for it and laugh.

I suck at lists. Hell, my "favorite movie" changes from day to day, but those are some that come to mind.

Well, I'll try not to get into any trouble in '07 and sell some fucking pot(s) and finally be able to buy people Masmas gifts.

I haven't downloaded all of this, so I don't know where they cut it off, but this is something I watch all the time. You may not "get it" without seeing the whole movie, so here's a quick re-cap: All That Jazz. Guy drinks and smokes, alot. He has hallucinations while he dies.

Nix says: Have you watched those videos down there? Funny shit!

Not A GLU Related Post

2007-01-07T11:17:00.000-08:00

I just fucking lied.

As you may know, God Lives Underwater was my favorite band and then the singer/songwriter died last year. Fuck, that sucks.

Well, the music guy, Jeff Turzo, hooked up with a guy from another band called sELF or something and their album is out. They're calling themselves Wired All Wrong. I didn't like it very much. But I listened again and it's been playing quite a bit in my player, now. The reason I didn't like it, at first, is that it wasn't GLU. This is more poppy, but it's goddamn catchy.

Anyway, I found some amusing videos, last night. the first one is a band called... I have no fucking clue. But I'm pretty sure the song is called Apache or Apache boy or something. It's disco, but it's comedy gold. Watch this shit:

Now, check out the Wired All Wrong video that re-edits that shit. Funny funny funny, bitches:

Nix says: That's all for now

Back To Work

2007-01-04T10:38:00.000-08:00

Shit. I gotta work, tonight. And I actually am looking forward to getting out there and outselling myself, this year. I almost hit $600,000 in '06 and I'm shooting for $700,000 for '07. Yeah, the crazy guy in a trench-coat and sunglasses kicked fucking ass. I can't believe it, myself.

Re: MySpace

I only got a MySpace account because friends kept sending my invitaions or some such shit. I'm glad I finally got one. I don't really send messages and whatnot, but some amazing things have happened since I joined the moo-ing masses.

An ex-girlfriend found me and we're friends, now. A guy I went to college with found me and someday I'll be able to see his band play. And most importantly, a beautiful, funny and intelligent girl from High School found me and made me so fucking happy. That's my Jessica.

Last night, a friend from Junior High times came over and hung out. He also found me on MySpace. He'd been trying to track me down for years and his wife was trying, as well, when they finally tried the MySpace route. His name is Tim. Or Timmy. Or Timmy 'Tarded. Yes, this is they guy where "Timmy 'Tarded" came from.

Damn, we had a good time. Watched some Happy Tree Friends and my shorts. Talked about funny shit in the past and just laughed, a lot.

Thank you, MySpace.

Oh, new review at www.tombofanubis.com

And finally: Somebody was saying that this song and video sucks. From what I've seen of the video, yeah, the video is stupid. But I like the fucking song. Sure, it's a little too November Rain, but I still like it. And it's amorphous. It can mean so many things. So, here's the lyrics. Catch the song somewhere.

AVENGED SEVENFOLD LYRICS

"Seize The Day"

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry
These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past

I found you here, now please just stay for a while
I can move on with you around
I hand you my mortal life, but will it be forever?
I'd do anything for a smile, holding you 'til our time is done
We both know the day will come, but I don't want to leave you

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Newborn life replacing all of us, changing this fable we live in
No longer needed here so where do we go?
Will you take a journey tonight, follow me past the walls of death?
But girl, what if there is no eternal life?

I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time
But I'm too young to worry (a melody, a memory, or just one picture)

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

So, what if I never hold you, or kiss your lips again?
So I never want to leave you and the memories of us to see
I beg don't leave me

Seize the day or die regretting the time you lost
It's empty and cold without you here, too many people to ache over

Trials in life, questions of us existing here, don't wanna die alone without you here
Please tell me what we have is real

Silence. You lost me. No chance for one more day
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home
I stand here alone
Falling away from you, no chance to get back home

Nix says: Sieze the day, bitch. You fucked yourself. Oh, and Timmy's 'tarded.

I Hate New York

2006-12-28T18:49:00.000-08:00

Yes, yes, it's true. This city fucking sucks. Dirty, claustrophobic, and too many goddamn people.

We're staying at the Hyatt in Manhattan. It's quite impressive in the lobby and outside. We're right above Grand Central station at 42nd street. A Jack and coke cost me $13 at the hotel bar. Needless to say, that was the only drink I had there.

Last night we had our first awards show. As Jeff and I left his room, we were bitching about how shitty the hotel was and as we rounded the corner towards the elevator, Jeff was in the middle of saying this: "This hotel is a piece of shit." There was a flock of grandparenty types standing that turned and stared at us. We all stood in uncomfortable silence as we waited for the elelatah and I suppressed snickers. Finally, I had to say "Oh, wait. I forgot something in the room." So we go back around the corner and we both immediately burst into unctrollable laughter. Good times.

Cocktails were going on before the show and Mr. Jim Martin, the guy on our DVD was talking with our group. I said: "Jim! You're the guy that tells me about the thief in my kitchen!" And TJ hopped in and told him that while we're cutting up the food that I say I think it's Jim Martin. Thanks TJ, you fucker. But it was funny.

So, now I'm in a quandry. I've got two huge trophys and two plaques to somehow get home. I packed light, dammit! And now I have no clue how to get these fuckers back. Let's see what they're for.... Well, Hall of Fame and World League Newcomer plaques. And Newcomer giant-ass trophy and one that, well let me explain.

It's for top recruiter with the name Tony Miller on it. Tony only had one recruit and it was me, so in his speech he said that I was the one that really deserved it and handed it off to me. I talked to some people in the business and they said they'd never seen that happen. Wow. Pretty damn cool.

So, I had to give another fucking speech for my own award for Top Newcomer. While it wasn't as fun as the one I gave at the Masmas party, I got a lot of good feedback.

Today, wasn't as exciting. We started at 10 a.m. and they brought in some douche-bag celebrity chef. Now, I talked to one of the big-head-honcho guys last night and he was telling me that this chef just loved our cookware. Sounded cool. But one of the first fucking things this chef said was: "Well, we don't have an oven, so we'll have to pretend." WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT???!!! I count 3 fucking ovens up there. They're called Royal Prestige cookware, you twat. Then he was making some potatoe type thing and when he went back he was all "And nothing has happened, here, so I'll have my assistant take this back to the kitchen and put it on a real stove." GOOD FUCKING CHRIST, YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW THIS SHIT WORKS! Now, the whole point of his little show was to show us the "versatility" of our product. Fine. But at least KNOW the product, dammit. So, me and TJ bailed and I had a beer.

When we got back, it was supposed to be a meeting about how to improve your business, or something. I couldn't really tell you, since all the pudgy guy started off with was how we had to walk and then we had horses and then cars and then planes and then phones and then internet and then...I have no fucking clue what this had to do with selling fucking pots and pans, for christ's sake. Anyway, me and TJ started writing notes back and forth, just like Junior High. Here they are for ya:

Nix: FUCK! Just tell us how to sell pots, you fucker!
TJ: Please jam this pen in my left eye.
Nix: And then stick an Ipod in my anus.
TJ: What company is this, again?
Nix: Microsoft?
TJ: I thought it was a dairy farm.
Nix: No. It's the Food Channel and AOL.
TJ: Is this CNN live?
Nix: JESUS FUCK! Get to the fucking point!
TJ: And baby Jesus - Where's the ticker tape at the bottom of the screen?
TJ: THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD PART 2
NIx: Starring: A bland white blob of flesh.
TJ: He seems so passionate and he's very entertaining.
Nix: He's the scavenger in our kitchen. He eats the scraps that fall out of Jim's mouth.
TJ: There are no scraps.

And then I slept. There's this great tubular pillow that fits under my neck perfectly and actually makes it not painful to sleep. I wanna take it, but I'm sure they'll charge out the fucking ass if I do. I'll have to find one when I get back.

I miss my baby. My leaving and traveling has never been a real problem, until Jessica showed back up. We dated in High School and now we're back together. How fucked is that? It's weird. It feels like we've been together for years but it's only been months. When I'm alone it feels pretty empty wherever I am. I really hope we can make this work.

Well, that's gonna do it. It costs $1.50 for the first 30 minutes of a phone call and I have to use dial-up.

Nix says: I'm coming home, soon, baby.

Masmas For The Masses

2006-12-26T12:38:00.000-08:00

Merry Happy Masmas, everyone!

Hopefully, you got to see some family and recieved a few gifts.

I spent 3 days with my sister and went to my aunt's for Masmas-eve-day. Laughed a lot, even though the fucking pain is unbearable. But I'm such a good liar...er..I mean actor, that it doesn't seem as bad as it is. How I love lying. Just ask around.

Anyway, I'm getting ready to leave for New York, here, and.......

Oh, wait. Before I talk about my personal life, which is pretty much what this space is for, let me make some observations, comments, outright lies, accusations and prophecies. Sound good? Groovy.

I surf pretty damn well. I have quite a few places I like to visit. Not just stomptokyo.com or bloody-disgusting.com or TOMBOFANUBIS.COM. I read different websites , as well.

I also read blogs. Some by people I don't even know, but find interesting and funny.

Lately, I've heard quite a few people say that we've become too "p c" on them or that if it's private, don't put it up in public and various other shit.

Fuck that. I'll admit that I've been leaving out certain things that might hurt or upset people. I wonder if that shit should stop? I mean, I started writing here on accident (See very first post for info, I believe) and quickly found it a good way to vent and release things I was stressing about and also to keep people I don't see all the time up to date.

It was also a place where people could support eachother or exchange opinions, even if you didn't agree and MAYBE, just maybe work out problems. It's turned pretty ugly when it turned RATED-PC.

It's sad. We want people to read and know us, but not completetly.

I don't write for any one person except myself, from now on. I should make it a fucking petition, or whatever. "I swear, that from now on I will not hold back whatever I goddamn feel like typing for myself. I'll vent into the vast spaces my inner turmoil, bitching and ranting. And I shall be freed. Amen and fuck off."

Nix says: I dunno. I'll have to give it shot next time.

I Miss You

2006-12-23T09:29:00.000-08:00

Buckcherry

Carousel

There are days that take to long
It's those days i wish i had you right here in my arms
I'm getting lonely
I'm sick of waiting here for you
I'm getting lonely
Please come home 'cause i want to be with you
Or maybe i'm a fool

Baby, you still drive me crazy
Nothing's going to change me
So you don't have to cry

Maybe i should take the blame
I guess the music man is no shelter from the rain
I'm getting lonely
I'm sick of waiting here for you
I'm getting lonely
Please come home 'cause i want to be with you
Or maybe i'm a fool

Baby, you still drive me crazy
Nothing's going to change me
So you don't have to cry

Oh yeah i said Baby
You know that you save me
Your love's so amazing
You're never off my mind

Nothing's going on
I've been gone for way to long
I'll be right back in your arms
Don't be afraid.

I'm getting closer
I'm making my way back home to you
I'm getting closer
I can see your face and the light keeps shining through
Hey baby what am i to do.

Baby, you still drive me crazy
Nothing's going to change me
So you don't have to cry

I said Baby
You know that you save me
Your love's so amazing
You're never off my mind

Nothing's going on
I've been gone for way to long
I'll be right back in your arms
Don't be afraid.

Nix says: Masmas.

Why?

2006-12-23T00:35:00.000-08:00

Why the fuck did I have to win all those goddamn trophys and shit? Do you know how hard it is to have to move those from one place to another?

Joking, of course.

Tommy actually gave me a Best Buy gift card. And I think the world is ending, hell is freezing over and Jesus is returning.

@Scolly: I can't say it enough. You taught me everything about this job. Thank you so fucking much, man. I'm gonna find you the perfect gift, someday. (Yes, I had to add "someday".)

If I had had (that looks weird) the cash, these would have been the shirts I would have had made. BTW......had.

Tony: Use your...BRAIN!

Scott: It's been a long day (noon, btw). My sinuses are kicking my ass. (and on the back) How about I just give you your trips and let you go?

John: I have to wash my face.

Tommy: Michael Jackson.

Jeff: I'm eating flies. Way better than you.

Jess: Quit climbing shit!

Nix says: Seriously, please remove my arm.

From Your Mowf

2006-12-15T13:03:00.000-08:00

The pain continues and all vicodin does is make me a drugged up guy in pain. I'm doing my demos with one arm, as I'm supposed to wear a sling when I'm up and doing things, so as not to cause more damage. Even if I wasn't wearing it, I'd end up dropping a pan if I tried to hold it and scream out "shit" or "fuck" in a fit of pain. So, it's a bit difficult but Jeff is helping out, a lot.

Did you see that clip of the high school football player who just jumped right over an opposing team member? It's on the news. He totally Jackie Chan'd it. It's fucking cool as shit. Check it out:

And I just found a killer GLU vid that should actually play. It's pretty fucked up yet cool as all hell. Here ya go:

Nix says: I wanna come home.

Please Remove My Arm

2006-12-12T06:24:00.000-08:00

For a week, now, I've had an intense and searing pain shouting from my shoulder-blade area, up my neck and into my shoulder, as well. It has made it nearly impossible to do my favorite thing: Sleep, for fuck's sake.

Well, now we have the verdict in from an official Doctor person. I have a torn or damaged rotator cuff. Just like a baseball star! No idea how it happened, I just woke up the night of the storm when I lost power and was hurting pretty bad. Figured it was just a pulled muscle or pinched nerve and would work itself out. Nope. Nope. Nope.

So, I'm back on Vicodan and something like anti-inflamatory or somesuch shit. If this doesn't work, it's entirely possible that I'll have to go into surgery in the next few weeks.

So, I feel the Vic kicking back in and I won't be able to type coherently, soon.

Nix says: A chainsaw would work.

Update: I posted this on the BJForum and said some more shit, so I added it here for you.

And here's an extra add-on accessory for you.

How in the holy hell did this fucking happen? Was it the marathon rounds of intense and hot sex with Bosnian hookers? Was it when I actually put the toilet seat down? Or the time that a funny joke was told and the person I was with lightly slapped my arm to let me know they were immensley ammused, even though the loud and annoying laughter straight into my ear pretty much gave it away?

Well, been doing some research and actually talking to someone whose BOTH rotator cuffs (or what the fuck ever) are fucked up.

This is no laughing matter, apparently, even though I'm joking about it, at this moment. This could all stem from the spill I took in L.A. when I was practicing my mad skateboarding skills and broke my elbow. It could be something that fucks with me for the rest of my life. Just the fact that surgery is lurking in the near future makes it serious.

Oh, fuck it. Whatever happens makes me broke, again, anyway. At least my life is consistent.

Anyway, thought you guys might want to know I'm pretty out if it most of the time, right now. The Vicodan makes me nauseaous and doesn't even kill the pain, fully. All I can do to make it better is lay on my bed. Just typing out this addendum is hurting. If I can make the party, I will, but I might need somewhere to stretch out, every once in a while.

See ya.

Nix

Well, That Was Ok.

2006-12-07T14:02:00.000-08:00

Got a Paid In Full last night. Not bad. But I wish I was home. I miss my baby.

Anyway, I found this vid and wanted to put it up. 2 reasons:

1) God Lives Underwater always spoke to me. The lyrics seemed to represent myself. Addiction, fucking up, knowing you fucked up...whatever. It was a dark day when David Reilly died, for me.

2) I just think it's a song that represnts my current situation(s).

So here ya go:

Nix says: I love everyone, Timmy!

Chilly

2006-12-06T23:19:00.000-08:00

I lost power for a few days.

Have I mentioned that I'm an abusive person? Have I mentioned that I have an illegitmate (sp?) child that I refuse to take care of? Have I mentioned that I'm a total fucking asshole?

Looks like I'm everything everyone says about me. I rock.

Nix says: Fuck all of you. Just fuck the hell off.

Words Of Wisdom And The Score

2006-11-30T09:51:00.000-08:00

Never trust an "alchy". Better yet, never trust someone who says nice things about you. They're lying.

Anyway, I promised someone (Hizzy) that I'd post the results of last nights marathon Tetris competition, since I was supposed to be "going down" since I'm still sick and hadn't played in about 3 days.

Each "Round" consists of 3 games, so the score represents who won the round by winning 2 games.

Me: 21

Jess: 1

And there ya go.

Nix says: Don't fuck with a Jedi master, son.

F*ck Yall's Turkey!

2006-11-24T10:58:00.000-08:00

I couldn't even eat on Thanksgiving. I'm so damn sick. Hopefully, you could understand me when I left Thanksgiving wishes on your anwering machines.

Well, since I can't do much else, I'm writing up my review of Troll 2, today. if you haven't, you should read my previous one of Troll 1 or just Troll. Whatever. www.tombofanubis.com

Went and met Jessica's mom, yesterday. Called her a MILF and generally had fun, even though I feel like shit.

I go, now.

Nix says: Troll 2. Good christ.

Come Play, Dammit!

2006-11-21T11:38:00.000-08:00

www.tombofanubis.com has new reviews up!

Find out what movie I think deserves a remake!

Find out what I did to your mom, last night. (not really)

Home, soon. Can't wait. I'm sick. Have a cold. Don't know how I'm gonna do the show, tonight.

Nix says: cough sniffle groan

Prepare To Be....Well, You Know.

2006-11-18T01:02:00.000-08:00

I have a new review ready for the Tomb and I had to share this with everyone. So, you're getting a preview since this is important.

"All us horror fans are up in arms and extremely pissed off over one thing: They’re remaking John Carpenter’s The Thing. Not a sequel or prequel, but a shit-ass (learned that word from my mom) re-make. It got me thinking: Why fuck with actual great movies? Why not pick one that didn’t quite turn out all that good and fix it? And what movie would benefit from a revamp?"

What movie do I think is worthy of a re-make? You'll have to check the site Sunday (or Monday. Anubis has a life, too) and see.

Nix says:

sigh I'm Here.

2006-11-17T14:39:00.000-08:00

Not excited about being here in Texas, but here I am. Got a new review (more of a shorty, but whatever) and one written and waiting for Sunday that is more substantial.

Well, bought some new CD's and this song is pretty good. It could fit many, many situations.

Buckcherry

Sorry

Oh i had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when i see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things i said to you
And i know i can't take it back
I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And i just wanted to say i'm sorry.

This time i think i'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when i see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things i said to you
And i know i can't take it back
I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And i just wanted to say i'm sorry.

Every single day
i think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Sorry!

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things i said to you
And i know i can't take it back
I love how you kiss, i love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And i just wanted to say i'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry.

Nix says: Time to work. People want their free shit.

Supermassive Black Hole

2006-11-10T22:06:00.000-08:00

This is off the new Muse album. Love this fucking song and I think the video sets itself apart from the "been there, done that" crap that everybody does. If I was tripping balls, I'd prolly be afraid of it.

Well, sold 4 out of 6, tonight. So that was like $7,200. Not a bad deal, Burt.

So, here's your tasty goodness. Enjoy.

Only Good Song On The Album

2006-11-02T00:40:00.000-08:00

And this is an extra.....

Good-bye. I'm Sorry.

2006-11-01T22:47:00.000-08:00

Nix says: ...................

Piss Pants

2006-11-01T02:51:00.000-08:00

You know it was coming!

Nix says: It was coming just like your mother.

Posity-Post

2006-10-31T03:32:00.000-08:00

The Tomb is open.

www.tombofanubis.com

I finally got through my writer's block.

Come and visit.

Nix says: Despite the errors, I think it's one of the most coherent things I have written.

PHONE Room?

2006-10-30T02:44:00.000-08:00

The above title does not properly express the intonation that makes it funny. For the proper delivery, see or talk to me in person. But it makes me laugh.

So, I'm doing ok in Texican town. I've made a little over 20 grand in 2 days, for the company (and only on paper). However, we seem to be getting quite a few "paid in full"s, and that's fucking cool.

But, damn! It's been the most chaotic fucking 2 days I've ever seen. We're having so many couples that it's taking us right up to the start of the next show to get done. And we're back to doing 3 shows on the weekend. I am SO looking forward to sleeping in, tomorrow, and only having 1 show to do at night. Hopefully, we can keep up the momentum and kick the shit out of Mr. Tuck In Your Sweater.

Interestingly, (for those in the know) that fucker did a show in blue-jeans after he saw John do one in them. hahahahahahah! I just did all my shows in jeans with a nice shirt and my beautiful black VANS and rocked the fucking house.

Seriously, the 3 shows I did today, were probably my best yet and I made great sales on top of that. I keep saying: "If I don't feel comfortable, how can the audience feel comfortable?" Looks like looking "professional" doesn't mean shit, as proven by John and his crazy fucking shirts (that he does not tuck in).

I think it also has to do with who is with me to close.

TJ would always tell me not to say "hell". Fuck that. If an audience is not cool with very slight cursing, then I tone it down. If they're ready and willing to have fun and put down those shields they come in with, then we have fun.

TJ would say I thought I could read minds and shit. No. I read people. It's my fucking job.

So with how uptight he was and how often he would walk in and fuck up my show by talking on the phone or constantly messing with shit (crinkling paper, coming up front to adjust the A/C, and just distracting the audience) I did a totally different demo.

Granted, we did a fuck-load of sales and he is a great closer. However, by being able to just make the demo fully mine, I've been doing just fucking fine, thank you.

I really wish I could keep Jeff as my closer. But I'm pretty sure he'll have to go back to Tommy and I'll be back with tattle-tale-TJ.

I love TJ. He's a great person. But he's a terrible match for me as a closer.

Jeff has grown a lot signing people in and closing. I've been getting him into the show and I've seen much improvement in his approach and delivery.

Hopefully, if he has to go back to Tommy, he'll look to me as I do to Scolly. The person who actually taught him something.

I love my fucking job. Especially, right now.

I should go back to bed.

Nix says: 84 per munst.

Have You Ever Done Weed...On Weed?

2006-10-28T01:51:00.000-07:00

That has nothing to do with me, right at this minute. I've just been joking about it for the past 24 hours, or more.

I'm so pissed that I had to fucking leave on my B-Day. And depressed that I missed it and Halloween.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Whoever can say whatever you want about my whining and how I chose this profession and whatever else you can come up with. But you can fuck off.

I'm just feeling so goddamn lonely.

I appreciate the myspace comments, btw, for those of you that did that.

Just........

Dunno.

Nix says: Bye

My Wonderful Birthday

2006-10-27T11:18:00.000-07:00

It fucking sucked.

I woke up. Packed my shit and spent 12 hours in a goddamn mini-van driving to Texas.

That was exactly what I wanted to do.

@Beaver: Thanks for coming over and for the books. They'll come in handy while I'm out here for so long.

@Quill: Thanks for the call.

I go, now. Must set up for my first show.

Nix says: Happy Fucked-Day to me.

Things To Say? Perhaps.

2006-10-24T14:10:00.000-07:00

Lemp Mansion was great. Well worth the $. The ghosts messed with us, a bit. Made friends with the other guests and just had a great time.

Now, I'd like to vent and address certain issues:

"WTF is this "shove" supposed to fucking be?

Why are you making it sound like I just walk around being all smooth and shit and don't mean what I say? WTFUCKINGFUCK?

Fine. You can delete me from internet shit, but I'm still here. And I still care about you. Fuck off. I can't even call you to talk. And the last time I DID call, you acted like you hated me. Fuck all that.

I really hope everything works out for you, but there is no reason for the shit you're giving me. I never did anything to deserve the shit you're making me out to be."

So, finally going back to Texas. And I'm kicking all sorts of ass with sales. ALL SORTS OF ASS ARE BEING KICKED BY ME.

Nix says: Tuck your lips into your nostrils.

Happy Birthday? Doubt It.

2006-10-20T14:12:00.000-07:00

I've said most of this on the BJForum, but I felt like actually fucking blogging.

I turn 32 on the 26th of this month. Unfortunately, I leave for Texas on the 26th, as well. So, I get to spend 12 hours in a mini-van on my birthday.

It gets even better! I get to spend Halloween in Texas, as well! Isnt that awesome?

Oh, well. As long as the sales are there, I'll be ok.

Now Jessica's birthday is the 22nd, so we're gonna visit my sis on Saturday and then spend Sunday night at the Lemp mansion.

I already knew the basic story of the Lemps and all that, but I've been doing a lot of reading and getting pumped up to go. We're actually staying in the William Lemp Suite, which is where ol' Willie shot himself. Nice!

@Spawn: Anubis is back and has stated that he is now FINALLY getting around to sending out the prizes. I specifically brought it up. Let me know when you get your shit, bitch.

That's about it, dammit.

Nix says: Tetris, Tetris, Tetris, Tetris!

That Was Fun

2006-10-08T09:55:00.000-07:00

I actually had people over, last night. And was awake, too.

Me, Jess, Jeff and his girl, one of Jess's friends and Marcus played games and laughed, a lot.

That's a shit-load of people.

And then I made dinner for me, Jess and Marcus.

This is a boring post. Just had a good time and wanted to share.

Tonight is dedicated to the Tivoli for Evil Aliens. SUPPORT INDEPENDENT FILM!!!!!

Nix says: Weapon Mouth

Well, Another One.

2006-10-05T01:18:00.000-07:00

I just keep hearing songs that make my personal soundtrack.

Guster: Dissolve

Well it's true he was so young
But you are here
And the moment clouds your brain

You could have even saved him
That means nothing
You could have even been there
It's a lie

How can you blame him for your life
It's a mental suicide
and it carries you away

Dissolve your fears into one
Try to figure out
Dissolve will find a way

And it's true we aren't immune
But there's a way
And denial clouds your brain

To try and understand him
That means nothing
To try and find the meaning
It's a lie

How can you blame him for your life
It's a mental suicide
And it carries you away

Dissolve your fears into one
Try to figure out
Dissolve will find a way

To right or wrong
To understand
To figure out
It's in his plans
To leave alone
To find a way
To figure out
It's not your fault

And it's the both of you he's ruined
He's torn away
All the desire born inside

You could have even saved him
That means nothing
You could have even been there
It's a lie

To try and understand him
That means nothing
To try and find the meaning
It's a lie

Dissolve your fears into one
Try to figure out
Dissolve will find a way

To leave alone
To find a way
To figure out
It's not your fault
You see yourself
Mother would be proud of you
To leave alone
To find a way
To figure out
It's not your fault
You see yourself
Mother would be proud of you anymore

I've Been Having Dreams

2006-10-02T14:37:00.002-07:00

It's the end of the world.

I had these just before Katrina fucked up New Orleans.

Something is coming. Prolly bad.

This is my song, today.

Oingo Boingo: Noone Lives Forever

You worry too much
You make yourself sad
You can't change fate
But don't feel so bad
Enjoy it while you can
It's just like the weather
So quit complaining brother . . . . . . .
No one lives forever!!

Let's have a party there's a full moon in the sky
It's the hour of the wolf and I don't want to die

I'm so happy dancing while the grim reaper
cuts, cuts, cuts
But he can't get me
I'm as clever as can be, and I'm very quick, but don't forget
we've only got so many tricks
No one lives forever!!!

You think you got it rough?
What about your darling doggy?
Ten short years
And he's getting old and groggy
I don't think it's very fair
Cold, chop, low, but it's all relative my friend
No one lives forever!!!
Let's have a party there's a full moon in the sky
It's the hour of the wolf and I
Don't want to die (but) . . .

No one beats him at his game
For very long but just the same
Who cares, there's no place safe to hide
Nowhere to run--no time to cry
So celebrate while you still can
'Cause any second it may end.
And when it's all been said and done . . .
Better that you had some fun
Instead of hiding in a shell-Why make your life a living
hell?
So have a toast, and down the cup
And drink to bones that turn to dust ('cause) . . .
No one, no one, no one, no one . . . . . . . (etc.)
No one lives forever!! (Hey!)

Fuck That Jazz...I'm Happy!

2006-10-01T13:51:00.000-07:00

I don't know if this is the original artist, but this is my mood, today. I love this movie. I'm gonna die.

Hugh Jackman
Song: Everything Old Is New Again

When trumpets were mellow
And ev'ry gal only had one fellow
No need to remember when
'Cause ev'ry thing old is new again

(Dancin' at) Your Long Island Jazz Age parties
Waiter, bring us more Bacardis
We'll order now what they ordered then
'Cause ev'ry thing old is new again

Get out your white suit, your tap shoes and tails
Let's go backwards when all else fails
And movie stars you thought were long dead
Now are framed beside your bed

Don't throw the past away
You might need it some rainy day
Dreams can come true again
When ev'ry thing old is new again

Get out your white suit, your tap shoes and tails
Let's go backwards when forward fails
But leave Greta Garbo alone
Be a movie star on your own

And don't throw the past away
You might need it some rainy day
Dreams can come true again
When ev'ry thing old is new again

I might fall
In love
With you again

Weapon Mouth

2006-09-30T15:30:00.000-07:00

The title of this post is the latest name I have for my (fake) band. Has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?

Work is better. That is all on that front.

Jess V 1.0 and her sister are coming over, tonight. We're gonna have a crazy-ass 3-way. Not really. But that would be fun, wouldn't it?

I'm gonna miss the Halloween party. I'm gonna be gone for my birthday. I'm hating life.

So, that's about it.

Here's something that should sum up my whole life of relationships. I'm sure it shouldn't come as a shock to some.

God Lives Underwater

Scared

I'm scared of you
There's nothing I can do
No sense in wasting time
I want you out of my mind

You make me feel unhappy
I wish you weren't real
You only make me unhappy
And I can't deal
With it

I never wanted you
But I'm afraid it's true
You're gonna catch me by surprise
I hope there's time to realize

You make me feel unhappy
I wish you weren't real
You only make me unhappy
And I can't deal
With it

The Road

2006-09-25T16:28:00.000-07:00

Just feeling this song is me, today.

The Road
by Hednoize

Driving somewhere
Out of nowhere
Speed away

A highway for my home
I was born to wonder
To heed the way

Anyway it goes
I can roll
The wheels are turning

Leave behind
The ties that bind
And go my own way

I won’t look back

………….

Someday
If I go far enough
Over the road
I’ll be a world away

I’ve been to Hell and back
I’ll take a Heaven exit, next

And I’ll fade away
Wide awake
I’m in no hurry

I look behind
And see the fire
The bridge is burning

I can’t go back

Driving somewhere
Out of nowhere

Speed away

AAAAAGGGGHHHHH!!!!!

2006-09-24T23:12:00.000-07:00

Everybody fucking run!!!!!!!!!

Shit! Fuck! Fuck! Shit! Goddammit! Fuck! Agh! Son of a fuck!

Hey, Now!

2006-09-24T01:25:00.000-07:00

Since getting out of jail, everthing's (Yes, I left out the "why") all fucked up. Work is crazy. I'm crazy. Everthing's just all fucked up. But I'm happy and surviving. Every day that you wake up alive is a good day.

My first kiss, Annetta, came to my show. That was interesting. Sales have been shit, but my shows have been great.

Me and Jess v 1.0 are getting along very well. Me, her and Marcus, my gay, black neighbor went to a movie on Friday. Feast is a hell of a lot of fun. Pick it up on DVD this October.

@Spawn and Quill: Burt is in it. "Not a bad question, Burt!"

Nix says: The Burt is back. He's boss Burt. Slave driver.

Kill Me

2006-09-23T14:20:00.000-07:00

I just had to find this online. I remember this stupid-ass shit from when I was a kid. Thanks to Jess v 1.0 for having the Mario theme as her alarm on her phone.

Now you're playing with power!

I love how he almost falls over at the "big finish".

Nix says: That poor fucking guy. This was his big paycheck. That fool.

Holy Crap!

2006-09-20T10:13:00.000-07:00

This is not a review.

I've just seen the most fan-fucking-tastic movie.

Hard Candy.

Find it. Watch it. You will not be disappointed.

Nix

I Got In An Arguement...

2006-09-11T22:48:00.000-07:00

...With gravity and he introduced me to his friend the pavement.

It was not a good time. I tripped over a curb in the dark and smashed my face into the ground. Blacked out for a second or so.Blood was gushing out of my nose.

That was Friday and it fucked me up so bad I haven't felt half-way ok until today. Slight concussion, I suppose. My nose still hurts, but the swelling has gone down and I handled an allergy attack ok, today. My neck finally feels better, too.

So, haven't been able to really sit and type, for awhile. It was hell trying to get through my demos. And then all we had were people without jobs and full-time students.

Ah, well. At least I didn't break my neck, which was a distinct possibility.

Home on Wednesday and then off to jail. Hooray.

Nix says: Gravity made me her bitch.

I Don't Think So.

2006-09-08T15:03:00.000-07:00

I don't need to re-think anything.

I thought it through and decided that I needed to be a fucking adult and tried to do what was right. Guess being responsible and depenable is just a bunch of bullshit.

From now on, I'm just not caring about anyone. Fuck 'em all.

Nix

Bloody Blood

2006-09-08T13:17:00.000-07:00

Me and pavement don't get along.

I'm resigned to being a dick. I thought I did the right thing. I thought that being honest was the best way to do things. I tried to be an adult.

Hi! I'm a dick! And if doing the honest thing makes me a dick. I'm a fucking dick.

Nix

Hi! I'm A D*ck!

2006-09-07T09:14:00.000-07:00

All Wrong by God Lives Underwater

I hate to
Break it to you
But this convenience ain't convenient anymore
Now I realize I had different eyes
Back when I thought this was a good thing

Here I am my anger and me
Temper makes it hard to see
This situation I'm in again
Everything must come to an end now
There's some things that I want to do
And I don't want to lie to you
But it still makes me go
And do the things I know
All wrong

I'll dig to
Learn about you
I'm sure I'll find you were as evil as me
We can call it even
You can let me leave then
You can leave me to my own thing

Here I am my anger and me
Temper makes it hard to see
This situation I'm in again
Everything must come to an end now
There's some things that I want to do
And I don't want to lie to you
But it still makes me go
And do the things I know
All wrong

And another. Fool

These days I'm getting older
Before my time
To say I'm getting stronger
Would be a lie
I think you're trying to break me
Seems so unreal
Don't know how to take me
Don't know how I feel
Look around you
Do you see what I see
Other people think you try to
Make a fool of me
It seems to take so long
Till anything gets done
Why do I have to lose to get things
I've never won
I'm defeated again
I see the look on your face
I've got that feeling again
My mouth has a bad taste
My hope in empty promise
Put me to shame
I know its what you wanted
I need the pain
I was gonna be someone
You held me down
Didn't want me to move on
You let me drown

I Eff Things Up....

2006-09-06T13:21:00.000-07:00

....A lot.

I'm terrible with a phone. I didn't even call to see how my aunt was, with her surgery. I forget birthdays and shit. I just forget to do things I intend to do.

I'm going to jail, again. 3 days. Hooray.

It's a mixed blessing and I don't feel like typing it out.

Nix

Hello, Blogging Community!

2006-09-02T16:34:00.000-07:00

I forgot why I even had this thing.

I actually started using it so I could post my feelings and opinions. I stopped doing that because I became nervous that people would actually read what was going on and get pissed off.

Know what? Fuck that.

This has been a crazy two year ride and I've loved every fucking minute of it.

Right now, I'm pissed, I'm happy and I'm crazed.

I never fucking try to hurt or use anyone and that's what I've been accused of. Sure, it's been "kinda" recanted, but it still fucking hurts to be called a dick.

I let things happen that I knew were the wrong things to do. But, because of my emotions, I let them go on.

Now I'm paying the price for having feelings.

That's all I'm gonna say about that.

Meanwhile, I'm going out to do some singin' with an old friend who makes me very happy.

Shit. I didn't even type up what I meant to. Fuck. Eventually, I guess I'll get back to using this thing the proper way.

Perhaps.

Nix

Evil Shouldn't Look This Good

Trying To Write.

Anybody Here?

This Is...HAHAHAHAHA! *ahem* My Ka-Nee

Oh, Boy.

The Sound Of Pulling Heaven Down

WARNING!! For Tetris Lovers Only!

You Should Read This

Apple

Hello, Dennis, Duane or Doug. I mean, Douche-Bag.

Yay, Ink!

And, For The Kiddies

Just, Blah.

Sleep.

Don't Let A Second...

I Did My Best! Yay!

Did Ya Kah-No?

Tomorrow's My First Show!

I Hate.

I'm Sighing, Again.

Here It Is.

Midnight Snack

So, For Dinner.

What I Had For Lunch

So I Can't Rhyme. Get Over It.

Bonus Blog

I'm Playing The Blues, Right Fucking Now.

For The Hizzy

Yeah, That's True.

I'm Such An Idiot.

How Long Will I Wait For You?

Don't Forget!

No YouTube, For Once

Perfect Poopiness

Blogger, Oh Sweet Blogger

Just Effing Great, Thanks!

Thank You, Vast.

Haven't I Said This, Before?

Big Fuckin' *sigh*

Pointless Video Of The Year

Goody-Good Thingies

Love This Damn Song

Why?

Ouch.

Words

Who Am I?

Full Disclosure.

A Nix Specialty.Nice!

Bad Timing. Ha!

Just Glad To Be Here

How Very Fitting

Hello Children Of The '80s!

We Should Do This Everyday!

Wizard Of Speed And Time

I'm Gonna Be Positive

Poop

Can't Stop It

Everything Old Is New, Again

Worst Trip, Ever

Shit!

Not A GLU Related Post

Back To Work

I Hate New York

Masmas For The Masses

I Miss You

Why?

From Your Mowf

Please Remove My Arm

Well, That Was Ok.

Chilly

Words Of Wisdom And The Score

F*ck Yall's Turkey!

Come Play, Dammit!

Prepare To Be....Well, You Know.

*sigh* I'm Here.

Supermassive Black Hole

Only Good Song On The Album

Good-bye. I'm Sorry.

Piss Pants

Posity-Post

This Is...HAHAHAHAHA! ahem My Ka-Nee

Big Fuckin' sigh

sigh I'm Here.